Sunday, Jan 19th 2014 [2.35 pm]
"Hyung... Kau melamun?" Kai menyenggol lengan Kris yang sedang duduk di dalam van EXO. Hari ini hanya enam orang member yang mempunyai jadwal fansign event yaitu Luhan, Sehun, Lay, Chanyeol, Kai dan Kris.
"ah.. Aniya.. Hyung hanya mengantuk" jawab Kris dengan senyum yang dipaksakan kepada dongsaengnya itu.
"Jangan bohong hyung... Aku tau kau sedang galau kan???" Kai berkata sambil menggoda Kris.
"Galau? entahlah.. Aku bahkan lupa rasanya galau.." Kris menjawab sambil kembali memperhatikan pemandangan diluar jendela mobil.
"Ge, kalau masih ada yang ingin kau katakan pada Suho hyung, katakanlah... Jangan dipendam" Luhan dari kursi mobil di depan memberikan saran pada Kris.
"ck, apalagi yang harus ku katakan? lagipula bagaimana mau bicara... Berpapasan denganku saja dia enggan dan memilih jalan lain daripada harus melihat wajahku" Kris berkata seolah menggumam. Kepalanya terasa pusing. Akhir-akhir ini ia tidak bisa tidur nyenyak.
"Kau bisa menulis kan hyung?" sehun si magnae berkata sambil memainkan games di macbooknya.
"tentu saja, pabo" Kris menjawab dengan kesal.
"tulislah surat.. lalu berikan padanya, terkadang tulisan lebih bisa mengekspresikan perasaan daripada lisan" Sehun berkata sambil matanya fokus pada layar macbooknya.
"wow, kau benar juga magnae... baiklah.. aku akan menulis untuknya" kris berkata sambil berseri.
"tapi jangan kau selipkan gambar maha karyamu hyung" giliran Chanyeol yang bersuara.
"Aishh.. diam sajalah kau" Kris sudah memegang notes dan sebuah pena bersiap untuk menulis.
Sunday, Jan 19th 2014 [10.45 pm]
sepulang dari fansign, hari sudah malam. Lampu-lampu di kamar dorm EXO sudah banyak yang dimatikan. tampaknya semua member yang tidak ada jadwal sudah terlelap.
Kris berjalan perlahan perlahan menuju kamar Suho. Ia menatap pintu kamar yang dulu ia tempati berdua dengan Suho itu. Tangannya meraba permukaan pintu, seolah itu adalah Suho.
'Kim Joon Myeon, aku sangat merindukan dirimu... Apa yang harus kulakukan?' Kris bermonolog di depan pintu kamar Suho. wajahnya merunduk menatap lantai.
'Aku masih menunggu, aku yakin kita pasti akan bersama lagi, walaupun keyakinan ku itu semakin hari semakin menipis.. ironis ya'
Usai berkata seperti itu. Kris meletakkan sepucuk surat melalui celah pintu kamar suho dan melangkah menuju kamarnya sendiri, tanpa ia tahu sosok Suho yang sedang menggenggam kenop pintunya dari balik pintu untuk menuju dapur.
Tubuh Suho menegang saat mendengar suara berat Kris. Ia terkesiap melihat sebuah surat melalui celah pintunya. Tangannya bergetar meraih surat itu dan mulai membacanya....
Dear Kim Joon Myeon..
It’s because I miss you more today
Are you doing well, are you still the
same? Don’t worry too much, I’m just a little
bit not over you. It’s because of the rain and I feel moody.
it's a long time after our break up. How are you? eventought we always meet everyday, but it feels like we've become a stranger.
Every night before I sleep, I always staring at my cellphone. I'm waiting for your goodnight message. and Every morning when I first open my eyes I checking my cellphone, hoping you'll give me a good morning messages.
I hate become weak. I'm not a type of guy who confess everything in my life. But you... you ruin my life, especially after we break up.
Dear Kim Joon Myeon...
at first, I never had feel that our relationship will have an end. I believe, we will together forever until we die. I never prepare my heart if someday you leave me alone. I'm so foolish.
I'm become a stupid person who always cry when listen to mellow song. Loneliness is my only friend. Rain always pouring around me.
memories of our happiness always shown in my mind.
i love you, even as time goes by.
i love you, even if the world changes.
no one can replace you, even you know that, my love can’t rest a day. i can’t live a moment without you. i can breathe only if you’re with me. i love you forever and ever.
Dear My BabyJoon...
i’m sick now. i have a fever. i cant even breathe. my bruised heart is calling only your
name. i can’t believe that it’s over
i can't give a precious person like you to someone else.
P-L-E-A-S-E
my love is an emergency.
come back to me, give me one more chance. to me, we’re inseparable.
i can’t believe that it’s over. i can never let you. that’s why you go to know:
i want love until i collapse from exhaustion.
please, just love me now. my only precious boy, let’s begin, let’s start again, ’till the end.
Today, Our failed anniversary. I didn't expect I will have a bad memories from date 19. It’s alright, I, even without you, I’m
alright. Even some of the days when I
remember, it’s alright. It's just because I miss you more today.
Truthfully, I don’t think I still
believe it. In a rainy day like today. Together we listened to our favourite song. But now,
I stare into your empty space for a while and
smile. baby you’re caramel macchiato. Still, near my lips, your scent is sweet, you’re more than the scent of caffe latte.
Do you remember this feeling, this
comfort. Will you come back? Will you come
back? One heart fluttering night. I waited all night in a dark room. I waited and waited for you and I cried a lot. Because I know it won’t work even if we meet again.
I waited and waited for you. I really hate you so much. But I hate myself for still crying and laughing because of you alone.
It’s because I miss you more today.
More because the wind feels cool and
the weather is so nice to have a confession.
If time passes a little, will I be able to
see you once more?
If you meet someone good and become
happy, Will you forget me?
The more I think that it’s over
I miss you so much that.
"Hyung... Kau melamun?" Kai menyenggol lengan Kris yang sedang duduk di dalam van EXO. Hari ini hanya enam orang member yang mempunyai jadwal fansign event yaitu Luhan, Sehun, Lay, Chanyeol, Kai dan Kris.
"ah.. Aniya.. Hyung hanya mengantuk" jawab Kris dengan senyum yang dipaksakan kepada dongsaengnya itu.
"Jangan bohong hyung... Aku tau kau sedang galau kan???" Kai berkata sambil menggoda Kris.
"Galau? entahlah.. Aku bahkan lupa rasanya galau.." Kris menjawab sambil kembali memperhatikan pemandangan diluar jendela mobil.
"Ge, kalau masih ada yang ingin kau katakan pada Suho hyung, katakanlah... Jangan dipendam" Luhan dari kursi mobil di depan memberikan saran pada Kris.
"ck, apalagi yang harus ku katakan? lagipula bagaimana mau bicara... Berpapasan denganku saja dia enggan dan memilih jalan lain daripada harus melihat wajahku" Kris berkata seolah menggumam. Kepalanya terasa pusing. Akhir-akhir ini ia tidak bisa tidur nyenyak.
"Kau bisa menulis kan hyung?" sehun si magnae berkata sambil memainkan games di macbooknya.
"tentu saja, pabo" Kris menjawab dengan kesal.
"tulislah surat.. lalu berikan padanya, terkadang tulisan lebih bisa mengekspresikan perasaan daripada lisan" Sehun berkata sambil matanya fokus pada layar macbooknya.
"wow, kau benar juga magnae... baiklah.. aku akan menulis untuknya" kris berkata sambil berseri.
"tapi jangan kau selipkan gambar maha karyamu hyung" giliran Chanyeol yang bersuara.
"Aishh.. diam sajalah kau" Kris sudah memegang notes dan sebuah pena bersiap untuk menulis.
Sunday, Jan 19th 2014 [10.45 pm]
sepulang dari fansign, hari sudah malam. Lampu-lampu di kamar dorm EXO sudah banyak yang dimatikan. tampaknya semua member yang tidak ada jadwal sudah terlelap.
Kris berjalan perlahan perlahan menuju kamar Suho. Ia menatap pintu kamar yang dulu ia tempati berdua dengan Suho itu. Tangannya meraba permukaan pintu, seolah itu adalah Suho.
'Kim Joon Myeon, aku sangat merindukan dirimu... Apa yang harus kulakukan?' Kris bermonolog di depan pintu kamar Suho. wajahnya merunduk menatap lantai.
'Aku masih menunggu, aku yakin kita pasti akan bersama lagi, walaupun keyakinan ku itu semakin hari semakin menipis.. ironis ya'
Usai berkata seperti itu. Kris meletakkan sepucuk surat melalui celah pintu kamar suho dan melangkah menuju kamarnya sendiri, tanpa ia tahu sosok Suho yang sedang menggenggam kenop pintunya dari balik pintu untuk menuju dapur.
Tubuh Suho menegang saat mendengar suara berat Kris. Ia terkesiap melihat sebuah surat melalui celah pintunya. Tangannya bergetar meraih surat itu dan mulai membacanya....
Dear Kim Joon Myeon..
It’s because I miss you more today
Are you doing well, are you still the
same? Don’t worry too much, I’m just a little
bit not over you. It’s because of the rain and I feel moody.
it's a long time after our break up. How are you? eventought we always meet everyday, but it feels like we've become a stranger.
Every night before I sleep, I always staring at my cellphone. I'm waiting for your goodnight message. and Every morning when I first open my eyes I checking my cellphone, hoping you'll give me a good morning messages.
I hate become weak. I'm not a type of guy who confess everything in my life. But you... you ruin my life, especially after we break up.
Dear Kim Joon Myeon...
at first, I never had feel that our relationship will have an end. I believe, we will together forever until we die. I never prepare my heart if someday you leave me alone. I'm so foolish.
I'm become a stupid person who always cry when listen to mellow song. Loneliness is my only friend. Rain always pouring around me.
memories of our happiness always shown in my mind.
i love you, even as time goes by.
i love you, even if the world changes.
no one can replace you, even you know that, my love can’t rest a day. i can’t live a moment without you. i can breathe only if you’re with me. i love you forever and ever.
Dear My BabyJoon...
i’m sick now. i have a fever. i cant even breathe. my bruised heart is calling only your
name. i can’t believe that it’s over
i can't give a precious person like you to someone else.
P-L-E-A-S-E
my love is an emergency.
come back to me, give me one more chance. to me, we’re inseparable.
i can’t believe that it’s over. i can never let you. that’s why you go to know:
i want love until i collapse from exhaustion.
please, just love me now. my only precious boy, let’s begin, let’s start again, ’till the end.
Today, Our failed anniversary. I didn't expect I will have a bad memories from date 19. It’s alright, I, even without you, I’m
alright. Even some of the days when I
remember, it’s alright. It's just because I miss you more today.
Truthfully, I don’t think I still
believe it. In a rainy day like today. Together we listened to our favourite song. But now,
I stare into your empty space for a while and
smile. baby you’re caramel macchiato. Still, near my lips, your scent is sweet, you’re more than the scent of caffe latte.
Do you remember this feeling, this
comfort. Will you come back? Will you come
back? One heart fluttering night. I waited all night in a dark room. I waited and waited for you and I cried a lot. Because I know it won’t work even if we meet again.
I waited and waited for you. I really hate you so much. But I hate myself for still crying and laughing because of you alone.
It’s because I miss you more today.
More because the wind feels cool and
the weather is so nice to have a confession.
If time passes a little, will I be able to
see you once more?
If you meet someone good and become
happy, Will you forget me?
The more I think that it’s over
I miss you so much that.
